I give you these roses now but I left in the thorns...

cold_position @ 2004-12-05T10:58:00

2004-12-05T18:59:20Z

I'M BACK!!!!!!!! HAHA...LATER

cold_position @ 2004-10-03T00:16:00

2004-10-03T07:17:56Z

shit its been a while hasnt it...people call me if you want...i know id like to hear from a lot of you but dont have any of your numbers...hope everyone is doing good and liking school and whatevers going on in your life...later

cold_position @ 2004-08-07T23:07:00

2004-08-08T06:09:18Z

i dont think anyone really misses me...oh well...later

cold_position @ 2004-07-04T13:13:00

2004-07-04T20:14:34Z

well im leaving now...hope everyone has a good summer and whoever is at warped hope your having fun too...since this might be for good...286-7081...later

cold_position @ 2004-07-02T21:30:00

2004-07-03T04:33:05Z

OK everyone tell me which one looks better...these are just drawn on by myself with a fat ass bic pen...i had to do the wrist upside down but i tried...anyway tell me which would look better...

please let me know which one...thanks...later

cold_position @ 2004-06-30T19:50:00

2004-07-01T02:52:05Z

i have the coolest friends ever i swear...3 friends offered to buy it for me and Hannah did cause she is friggin awesome and yeah toooo friggin cool and nice. she bought bought me this friggin cool ass belt its pink and black. http://shop.pacsun.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?storeId=10001&catalogId=10001&categoryId=10090&parentCategoryId=10003&productId=44728&langId=-1&promo=&origin=AAS wahooooo friggin awesome...thank you sooooooo much hannah for getting it and tosha and jessica cause you offered too....you all are awesome..later

cold_position @ 2004-06-30T11:23:00

2004-06-30T18:25:30Z

well everyone im moving this sunday...i wont be online or anything anymore but if you want to talk i do have a cell phone...just ask for the number if you want to actually talk...by the way i am dead serious about this...thank you, thats all...later

cold_position @ 2004-06-10T11:04:00

2004-06-10T18:06:26Z

2 hours...are you gonna miss me? well thats all...later

cold_position @ 2004-06-06T19:06:00

2004-06-07T02:07:46Z

just fuck everything right now...fucking everything always goes wrong...can i not just have ONE fucking thing go right for mw? just ONE fucking thing is all im fucking asking for...this is fucking bullshit...ahhhh just fuck everything...the best part is i know no one fucking cares any fucking way...FUCK IT...LATER

cold_position @ 2004-06-05T12:46:00

2004-06-05T19:47:12Z

wow i HATE myself right now...5 days and im gone...you'll all be happier...later

cold_position @ 2004-05-18T14:25:00

2004-05-18T21:27:12Z

new AIM sn, if you want,im me sometime ok stoicdreams

well yeah thats it...later

cold_position @ 2004-05-09T22:12:00

2004-05-10T05:21:57Z

i love my cookie Jennifer

romanced_death and she loves me. dont be jealous nukkas...later

cold_position @ 2004-05-02T14:25:00

2004-05-02T04:55:38Z

well im on myspace now. i dont know why. some friends asked me to go on it so i did. my email is trx310r@hotmail.com if you wanna add me on there...later

this is how I feel and Senses Fail is fucking awesome...

2004-04-22T06:16:47Z

its so nice, sitting very still
in a room where, no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart, each day, im NOT ok
sunlight shining through my window, lets me know that im still alive

a gaping hole shot...SHOT THROUGH MY HEART!!!

Yeah...Later

cold_position @ 2004-04-13T19:34:00

2004-04-14T02:36:53Z

Yeah my birthday was yesterday, whoopty friggin doo I'm 16. Pretty gay and boring day, that's all...Later

cold_position @ 2004-04-08T23:35:00

2004-04-09T06:36:25Z

Why am I such a jackass who acts stupid all the time? I hate pretty much everything right now. I can't seem to make shit go right and just everything sucks. Sorry to everyone who has to put up with me being so fucking stupid...Later

cold_position @ 2004-03-13T20:05:00

2004-03-14T04:09:26Z

I can't explain how I feel but I know it isn't good...Later

cold_position @ 2004-02-20T22:00:00

2004-02-21T06:13:47Z

Well, I think theres pretty much no chance with this girl now. She makes absolutely no sense and it's bugging the crap out of me. Just a few days ago she sat there telling me she hated him and that she didn't even want to go to house to get her stuff and through our talk she was on the verge of crying. Then after all that she doesn't come to school and spends the whole day with him. Am I the only one who thinks that's a little not cool?...Oh, this is great while I am sitting here typing this she calls from HIS house just to tell me they got back together. I guess I'm not going to worry though. I think I might get with this other girl. I've known her longer, she's really cool and we have a lot in common and she's cute so I guess I will see what happens with that but still I just can't believe that crap. I'm leaving...Later

cold_position @ 2004-02-14T22:25:00

2004-02-15T06:26:41Z

Well Happy Valentines Day to everyone, I hope you all had a good one. Mine was pretty good all because I got to see her. I got her a bear, chocolate and a card. I think she liked the stuff, I hope she liked the stuff, I didn't get a lot since we aren't even together but I wanted to get it. The night was pretty good I felt kinda wierd because I really wanted to kiss her and tell her how much I liked her even though she already knows but I was scared. I don't know why but it just doesn't seem like she really likes me and I have such a hard time asking her. I feel stupid because I forgot to give her the card and in the card I asked her to be my Valentine. So when she left she read it and called me saying it was kinda late since it was almost 10 already but she told me she would still be my Valentine. I mean that made me feel good but I just don't know. So, anyway hope everyone had a good Valentines day...Later

cold_position @ 2004-02-10T17:59:00

2004-02-11T02:21:25Z

I think I like her, I am almost positive I do but I don't know what she thinks and I feel afraid to ask. We flirt, we hug, and we talk on the phone and we say we're there for each other. People say they think something is going to happen, both her friends and mine say it but what if she just wants me as a friend. The flirting thing is cool but it seems like she is flirty with a lot of guys and her friend tells me she only means it with some people and that's me but ahhh. I have no idea what I think really, I really don't even know why I am stressing. We haven't known each other for a real long time and I think we both want to get to know each other before something happens but DAMN, how do I friggin ask how she feels? I can't just go up to her and say "Hey, do you like me?" I mean I want to know more than anything right now but I can't just be like that. She just broke up with her boyfriend a week and half ago and the last thing I want to do is rush into things and have it be one of those wierded out, rushed, not wanted kinda relationships. I really think that I want something serious, I just don't know. With Valentines Day coming up it makes think 50 times worse. I see all these people together talking about that day and I see couples always hugging and kissing and I just want that. I'm not worried about all the sex stuff, I want someone who I can cuddle with and kiss and have those people go "Oh, that's cute" when we kiss or hug or whatever. I just want to be a couple. I don't know I just hate all this junk, I am done rambling on about this I'm just going to talk to her about it...Late

I'm To Depressed To Go On...

2004-01-30T06:40:57Z

Right now I am just not enjoying life at all. I mean there is like nothing going good for me. I have pretty much no good friends that I can actually sit down and talk to. I have no girlfriend that I can just cuddle with and watch a movie. I have no money or car do a dang thing. I just feel so friggin lonely and it sucks so bad. I don't even know what to say anymore. I want a girlfriend and I want my best friend back. Uhhh I hate this crap so much. I don't even know why I am writing this. No one reads this crap anyway...Later

cold_position @ 2004-01-12T18:14:00

2004-01-13T02:16:27Z

I was watching this show about bands a while ago then I watched that thing on Blink 182, and Kut U Up on the tour thing or whatever and I just released how badly I want to be in a band. Just to be up on stage and play and to watch people going crazy just to see you do something you love. I wish I could be in a band so band. Just to do something that you love and enjoy so much and when you do it, it makes you feel good inside. Well, I just wanted to get that out...Later

cold_position @ 2004-01-11T19:30:00

2004-01-12T03:31:41Z

I know I probably sound selfish but I feel hella lonely. It seems like no one even cares anymore...Later

New E-Mail and AIM SN...

2004-01-09T00:19:40Z

Hey, well I got a new e-mail address and AIM sn.

E-mail - TRX310R@hotmail.com
AIM sn - TRX310R Rider

IM me or e-mail me if you want ok...Later

cold_position @ 2004-01-04T18:00:00

2004-01-05T02:07:41Z

I got back from Dumont today at around 4. It was a pretty good weekend. The weather wasn't nice at all during the night but during the day it was alright. I rode quite a bit and hit A LOT of jumps. I think the best one we found was a jump that was about 15-20 feet long and atleast 6-8 feet high maybe even more. It was awesome cause people stopped to watch us. Most of the weekend I just jumped. I wasn't with my mom and all them in our trailer plus my bike isn't even close to being built yet so I rode an R that the guy I went with let me use. It was pretty much all stock but it was still fast and fun. Anyway though I am pretty sore cause I haven't rode in a while. I got a lot of bruises and my back is killing me but I LOVE IT. It's all part of riding. I'm going to shut up now so...Later